On the downslope (again)

I'm keeping a positive attitude, I AM getting better, but I do feel worse this Monday than last Monday. Only a little worse, but I was hoping that resting over the Thanksgiving weekend would have me feeling perkier.

Because of Thanksgiving I missed my usual Thursday Pilates class, so no pilates "boost" on Thursday. We did go for a nice long walk on Friday, which made me feel better, although when we got home I had to pee so bad I took the 4 flights of stairs to our apartment instead of waiting for the elevator. My heart rate monitor was beeping at me for the last two (but I had to pee!), I maxed out at 136. I didn't feel any ill effects at the time, but I think that was more cardio-vascular stress than I could handle because that's when the backsliding started. I was waiting for water to boil the next day and decided while I was just standing there I'd do some pilates/ballet leg moves, some rond de jambe's (making the letter D on the floor, up, out and around, back to starting position) and some simple leg lifts, to the front, side and back. Doesn't sound so strenuous, huh? But the last couple of reps just felt...well, they just felt like I shouldn't have done them. Not any kind of pain in my chest or breathlessness, just a sense of overexertion.

I noticed later Saturday and Sunday that my "spot" was back. When I inhale I have this sense of cool air going over a sensitive spot about an inch to the right of center, about even with my armpit. I didn't have that "spot" in the very beginning, but started to notice it when I had my big setback back in August. I think when that happened I ruptured something in there. Nice.

Part of me is interested in knowing what, exactly, I did to myself. But it's not worth the time, aggravation, and money to find out. Whatever it was, it is healing, it's just taking it's sweet ass time. The Buteyko exercises help I think in part because it's training me to use my lungs less. Whatever the injury, reducing the load on my lungs has to help.

I just need to get back to the program. Rest. Ginger tea. Buteyko 3 times a day. Not overdoing it (hold it and take the fucking elevator next time!). Recovering from an injury takes time. I simply must be patient.